well, had lunch @pasta mania with my class and dinner also @ pasta... and of course, jianhao is not happy with treating me.. haha.. jkjk....

well, some BENGS studying...


Had icecream @ ICEKIMO... nice!!!!!
RANDOM pic by me...

well, today wasted one day going out to destress and in the noon, went to CC and played table tennis.. lol
won teow xu one match-- ^.^ then lost all the rest.. lol
won sam 5 matches and he did 100++ of pumping for punishments.. lol

after which went to eat out for dinner and at the same time celebrating for my dad's bdae!!!
lol

then at night, went to meet CG, teow xu and sam at northpoint and decided to watch a movie.. haha
CG treats.. (thanks thanks)
well, we watched GI.JOE and well, not too bad a show.. cos i like action movie.. haaha
well, that concludes my day.. :)

this week suppose to be a good week as it's so called a dream come true kinda situation...
cos was like studying wit someone special and its like fulfiling my dreams last year..
but things are not as happy as it seems.. maybe i think too much or maybe it's true..
but im a sensitive person who thinks alot.. and it may be me the one who is all along thinking that im having hopes for some things..
well..
this is the most famous phrase of all- "false hope"
thanks to this.. im fallen into the dark and painful trench again..

this will be a long long long time b4 i can stand up again..

* if u dun wanna accept me, pls dun ever come and communicate to me.. esp when i try so hard to forget u*

an encouragement from WK!!! damn GAN DONG~~~ haha.. decode urself to get it's meaning

6 more days to prelim and i havent started revising... GG
had been out to places with friends and playing... haiz~
there's an incident which happened on sat.. duing bb session on afternoon and night
well, after noon was out with some ppl and received a call from sam..
he said.. "teckseng.. faster come down to 219.. got ppl guai lan us"
then he elaborate more and immdiately i chiong cab down and in the end.. was just a group of ah bengs playing bb..
wad can i do?
help my fren to play bb with them.. well, instead of playing rough with them.. i focus on humiliating then by giving them the "in ur face" shots...
well, played 7 rounds and won 6 rounds..
after that
chiong cab back to meet the person and chiong cab back to 219 to talk with my frens... altogether... cab fee is close to 20 bucks..
but this is not the main story...
at night.. sam, teow xu and i were playing bb and obviously the rest are late.. so we played a match with three ppl(whom we thought are quite friendly)
in the end, they played rough... very rough..
and we lost...
we waited for another team to finish and as usual that team was unhappy as they play rough against them.. then got this guy from the second team was so unhappy that he kicked the ball and walk away..
so it's out turn now.. sam, teow xu and i were having this thought- "play for revenge, not scores"

first off, sam pass me the ball and immediately, i shouldered into the inner court. Sam was forcing his way through as well.. teow xu was giving stares to the opponent..
well.. let's go to the highlights... sam uses elbow all the way to counter his opponent.. and this opponent of his was damn irritating.. his foot work is so lousy that he tripped me and hurt my wrist... -.-
while for me.. i turned fast and knocked a guy flat onto the ground and i just carry on shooting the ball and walked away..
teow xu was scolding vulgarities all along..

well.. this is the most enjoyable part.. well, in my 18 yrs of life, 12 years of basketball.. this is the first time i did this..
during the match, last point... sam pass a straight ball to me at the side of the court... my opponent was running towards me.
i jumped, very high, lean back and for the first time i hang in the air for so long and my instinct controlled my whole body and the ball went into the basket...
when i landed... i was extremely contented..
my fren said it was a nice hang.. of course i agreed... damn happy..

well, today went to see doc again.. haiz~ my leg.. gone la. everytime spain
well, as usual... draw blood and draw blood.. but this time.. the pain came mostly from the ankle bone... wow.. imagine poking needles to the bone... one word- PAIN!
After that, went out with kevin and sam to have lunch... but b4 that.. kevin went to repay his "sin"lol...
haiz~ also, seems like i needa gif up on relationship liao.. it's just cant be improved.. although as much as i want it to be fruitful...
fate is cruel life goes on..

And for some...1thing 2say, 3words 4u..."fuck u, understand?"

had vodka with lyon... not too bad.. haha

well, it was not really delightful today as i was in a rush into everything...
well.. ard noon had abit of vodka with lyon.. lol. well it was not too bad i suppose..
after which rush to meet her to study..
well, as usual.. minimal conversation.. and some other stuffs..
hmm.. i've got to do sth.. but by doing so, i cant focus.. haiz~
nvm..
afterwhich.. went to meet two frens.. jianhao and sam for a movie.. public enemy..
it was not bad a show..
well.. that's all for today..

+i try to go closer but u wont let me+

it should all end on may..
but july u came without warning and it came with another false hope...
last week sun was a happy day although it wasn't really happy. cos, at least i've
did sth (although not significant) which i always wanted to ever since the first time
i met u last year...~thought there has been improvement, but it isnt~
things have not been easy for me ever since i've been into JC.. in terms of studies..
and u, who always turn out hot and cold repetitively gave me a hard time to make a
decisive decision... dealing with u onli creates more burden to my life..
but it's just easier to give in than to give up which is wad making my heart painful...
it seems like a decision will be made real soon.. very soon...

+in life, u'll regret some things which are unfulfiled.. and to me, this is the thing.. my greatest regret+