7may is the worst experience in my life.

A level results nt good
Appearance nt good
Character getting worst
Self esteem is losing

This is the current me

When one person is down with nothing, he will start to think..
thinking very deeply of the alternatives and routes in life..

Relationship has always been one sided for me and nvr have i been given a chance to engage in a relationship.. What's the prob? well, some said is the way i do things.. character and such.. unlike the "real" me from the past...

What hindering me??

it is my appearance... i've been laughed at since sec4.. well and that is when things changed.
self esteem damped. Character starts to change...
When i always gif myself a chance to chase potential girl, i'd always fail... leading to a vicious cycle..
This has greatly dampen my morale...
i'd no more faith in love anymore..
Jealousy took over whenever news of her getting along well with some guys..
why can they but not me?
why?
false hopes is within my life and it always played me..
and without fail, i will fall for it.
Hw stupid i am..

Academic is another area that push me down to the grave..
I cant really go anywhere now..
NTU- maybe
other than that.. NO

This all lead to the affairs of the heart.
Some things can be changed but some cant..
and these CANTS is the things that i'm troubling abt

If people do have a chance to achieve sth..
why cant i see the chance coming to me now?

Or it has come but i just freaking cant see it..
I am on a routeless route now..


This is me.. The CURRENT me

well, it had been a long time since i last write

sian

世上的好女人越来越少！！！！！